11.10 pm

i really should be sleeping now, but i am feeling super hyper. i think it is the coffee; drank two cups of it before the performace because i was feeling lethargic then. seems like i have overdone it now. there is probably still a significant concentration of caffeine in the brain blocking the adenosine receptors. and from wiki, it is the reduction in adenosine activity that leads to an increased activity of the neurotransmitter dopamine that largely accounts for the stimulatory effects of caffeine. so that's a bit info for physiology =)

physio prac was cancelled today due to power cut in the department, so i had an unexpected but welcomed free afternoon. thought i would do some work and catch some sleep, but at around 4.00pm, which was a good five hours before the show, i was feeling jittery already. so years of performance experience does not help very much in alleviating pre-show apprehension. and spending hours "preparing myself mentally"for something that lasts less than 4 minutes is probably why it always seems to me that i have less time and energy than other people to be involved in an array of activities. i have not been utilising time and energy efficiently!

the way around it is probably to learn to focus the mind in the right things at the right time. easier said than done, but i'll just have to keep practising.

so the right thing to do at this hour is to sleep. the first lecture is at 9 in the morning and there are 3 lectures, 1 practical and 1 supervision tomorrow. in the evening, it's the third show for elemental. sometimes i feel like i have to be superwoman to tide through this week.